I would've liked today's post to be better than what you're about to read but life just didn't work out that way. It's Monday, I was up bright and early at 6am, without feeling groggy or tired, albeit a little bit sweaty. I've edited and uploaded a video, had breakfast, showered and washed my hair, put out the washing and meditated. I do need to make my bed still but that can wait lol.
Everything today is pretty wonderful but as I sit down for what feels like the 100th time to TRY and write, inspire and connect............ nothing comes out.
Not a damn fucking thing, and this is been a reoccurring issue in my life for the past few months.
I've got so many posts half written and a few posts with photos attached but no words. The motivation is there, the intention is there but yet words fail me.
It's so frustrating!
I just don't feel like writing is flowing for me at the moment. It's like I have so much to say but I'm not sure how to articulate it all in a way people will understand.
Mentally I'm in a good place too. I'm well rested and don't have anything to worry about so this constant block is really starting to grate.
Sometimes I feel bored. Bored of blogging, bored of the industry and just bored of the grind. Other days I just don't feel inspired to talk or write or share anything. Maybe I'm also going through a stage of being 'silent' in order to learn and then write about whatever is happening..
I just spent 10mins staring at my screen, so I had an ice cream, moaned to myself that its too hot, scrolled Twitter for a bit and now I'm back.
I'm back, but I don't have a clue what to say lol and for someone like me who always has something to say, something to speak on, something to write about, I don't really know where to go from here.
Maybe the words will come to me when the time is right. Maybe the sun has caused my brain to overheat. Maybe Love Island has made a part of my brain die off. Who knows!
I guess this post is to say hello, hi, please don't think I just cannot be bothered to post because that is far from the truth. I want to write, and share killer outfits and reconnect with you guys on a special intimate level that we have but alas, I don't think that's on the horizon anytime soon.
This feeling of being blocked and lost is something I am sort of alright with though. Yes its frustrating and weird and sort of an inconvenience to my job but I also believe there are reasons for everything that happens to us.
I've worked pretty consistently for years whilst also doing a whole heap of work on myself, and I'm starting to think that maybe this summer a natural break is happening. Maybe the heat calls for more pool days and less time spent at my laptop and you know what? That's okay. The beauty of being self employed is being able to slow down and pace myself when the feeling strikes.
And that feeling is 100% here and ready to stay for a while.
Its so hard not to pressure on yourself though to constantly produce content (PS, IGTV has no use for my life and I'm so happy because do we really need a n o t h e r platform lol?). I of course want to do everything, but its just not feasible and I guess I'll get back to writing and posting on my blog, when the time is right.
My brain has gone dead again lol. Another 15mins has past and I've just been drinking squash and wishing it would pour with rain and maybe even snow?
WHY YOU SO HOT LONDON?
With all that being said, and being the typical Virgo I am, I have a lil solution to get things flowing again.
- My new blog design that is launching in the next few weeks, will hopefully get my creative juices flowing.
- I'm off to New York in two weeks for a week of frolicking in the sun, eating all the brunch food and attending some amazing healing classes in Brooklyn. Maybe my energy will then shift and I'll be able to write.
- And lastly I'm just gonna stop worrying and start relaxing. I know inspiration will come to me eventually, but forcing it will just make things worse.
See you guys soon!
PS. Yes I wrote this on Monday and I'm only just publishing it on Tuesday (see what I mean lol). I just can't get my shit together.