So we're practically half way through the year and I don't wanna be that person to say 'how the hell did that happen', but seriously. HOW THE HELL DID THAT HAPPEN?
I thought it would be a nice idea to take this moment to have a chat to you about how my year has been so far.
What I've experienced, what I've learned and just a general overview of the last 6 months.
From therapy to career highlights - lets catch up.
Jacket | River Island*
Top | Boohoo+
Skinny Jeans | Missguided+ (similar linked)
Sunglasses | Celine (similar linked)
Bag | Topshop (similar linked)
My Personal Life
So I thought we'd kick things off with what's been going on behind the scenes. I'm pretty open with this kinda stuff but obviously things happen day to day, week to week that I keep to myself. One of those being, that I've been massively struggling with my body image. It's probably no surprise to you all, but my eating disorder and childhood trauma is very closely linked to how I feel about my body, and when my boundaries are pushed and I feel triggered, my unkind voice gets louder and that can be quite difficult for me. I've been practising self care and allowing myself to feel sad but the enormous urge to lose weight can be overwhelming at times - as you can imagine and probably somewhat relate to? I know better days are coming but I just feel a bit drained having to fight with myself all the time.
On a more positive update, I've gone back to Zumba after not allowing myself to go for 2-3 years. This was mainly down to my ED but of course other factors also came into it. At the moment, I go on Saturday mornings but I'm hoping to build up to once or twice midweek too - but we'll see. Its nice to move my body now because I love it, not because I hate it!
Generally, I'm actually pretty happy with how things are going in terms of personal growth. Yes I sometimes feel drained and sad but that's what therapy does to you. I'm just proud that I had the courage to start such a difficult but empowering journey. I'm still struggling to maintain friendships which I've spoken about briefly before but I'm trying to just appreciate the solid friends I do have. I've been taking the weekends off - even if I'm super busy because I'm working hard to prioritise rest, just as much as work. I realise now that they are both of equal importance!
Oh and I'm f i n a l l y in a place of financial stability too! I've paid off old teenage debt, as well started properly saving for a rainy day. Yes I still spend a little too much on ubers and ASOS deliveries but you can't win em' all can ya? LOL!
Career & Opportunities
Back in December, I decided this year would be about longterm collaborations with brands and a general elevation in blog content. Blogging is my absolute favourite thing to do and I am trying to produce original and inspiring stuff, as well as experiment with post formats and photography. I'm super proud of my recent posts and as you can probably tell, fashion and outfit content is my jam right now - I just can't get enough of them. I'm now trying to take my blog motivation onto Youtube so I'll keep you posted about that.
In 2016 I was lucky enough to work with lots and lots of incredible brands on small campaigns or one off posts. It was fantastic but stressful trying to manage so many jobs and maintain relationships with these brands too. But this year I have definitely taken a turn in my career where I am able to work with less brands but on a longterm basis. You may have seen that I'm an ambassador for the beauty brand Being, as well as a summer ambassador for ASOS. I adore both of these brands!! I also got a bloody book deal which has allowed me to not worry about brand deals as much and thats a nice feeling to have.
Talking of my book. Its fucking out in 2 days!!!! The publication day of No Filter has come around so quickly and although I'm SO excited for you guys to get your hands on it, I am also nervous which I'm hoping is a very normal emotion to feel lol. My entire life and my deepest darkest thoughts are in my book but nonetheless, I really believe so many women will be able to relate to the topics I'm talking about. You can pre-order No Filter here.
When I relaunched my blog back in April I also started a Newsletter, which I hoped I'd stick to - but if you haven't noticed, I did not lol. I'm annoyed at myself but I felt uninspired by it because it felt like I was just regurgitating content that I had already blogged about or that I was planning to. I guess the whole process wasn't as fun or as easy as I thought, and it was actually pretty time consuming. So with that being said, the newsletter is no longer. It might make a comeback in the future, but at the moment I just don't have time time or mental capacity to do it. I hope you all understand and aren't to annoyed about it but nothing else will change. I adore blogging!
Earlier in this post I mentioned playing around with photography and a few days ago I ordered a film camera to help with that. Lizzie Hadfield and Vicky Grout have inspired me to experiment and start shooting differently to what's usually expected on a commercial fashion blog. Watch this space 🙂
I have fallen in love with graciefrancesca.com and everything that comes with it. I enjoy thinking of ideas, bringing them to life and then hitting publish. I even enjoy the admin side of things at the moment which is weird lol. If there's any content you'd like to see other than that I'm doing at the moment then please let me know. I still need to work on nailing the flat lay as well as working on my actual branding! Im enjoying this crazy ride and I hope this feeling remains.