AM I DOING ENOUGH?

 

 

Dress – SIMPLY BE | Longline Bomber – JUNA ROSE

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I think its fair to say that a huge downside to running your own business or simply living in society today, is feeling like there is always something to do and always more that could be done. As I write this post, I still haven’t showered, I’m sat in my pjs at 11am & there is copious amounts of washing up to do.  I feel guilty and lazy and like I need to put on a full face of makeup and get on top of filming videos, taking photos, editing a vlog I’ve been putting off and everything else I should probably be doing. Even though I’m reaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllyyyyy not in the mood to do anything at all.

Yesterday’s therapy session has left me feeling a little wounded. I feel extra vulnerable and drained and sad and I would love nothing more than to run away for a while and hide from the world (or at least people that know who I am). I just can’t get motivated and I feel like I’m simply not doing enough.

Yes I’m busy, pretty much all of the time. Yes I have a healthyish (LOL) bank balance. Yes I’m getting enough work and opportunities. Yes I just wrote a book. Yes I post weekly and upload videos when I can. Yes I tweet daily and post most days on Instagram and yes I meet new & old brands frequently. So why do I feel this way? Why am I putting so much pressure on myself to force things & do even more?

 

 

I guess I know what I’m capable of but I’m frustrated that my brain capacity can’t handle being overwhelmed, because my mental health isn’t 100% right now. I’m also due on so I feel lethargic and more emotional than usual, yay to being a woman. But the leading factor in feeling this way, is because I’m seeing how much other people are doing. Or should I say, how much other people look like they’re doing.

Comparison is inevitable – we’re only human after all, but in comparing myself to others, I’m left feeling like I ‘shit.. I should probably do that or start doing this and omfg I’m a failure of a human being’.

I wish I could take outfit photos everyday and curate a dreamy Insta feed. I wish I could drink coffee in a peaceful aesthetically pleasing cafe and live the good ol’ freelance life. I wish I could afford a dreamy new lens and take outstanding beauty shots of makeup and face masks and cute little bath bombs. I wish I could upload videos twice a week (like I fucking promised myself and my followers that I would). I wish I could hire a crew to help me film a sick ass fashion video and I wish I could get my life together and save for a house and stop ordering new clothes from ASOS. I wish I could do it all, I wish I could do what I am doing, but all of the other stuff too, but I can’t.

But that doesn’t mean I’m not doing enough.

 

Photography by JKG | jkgphotography.co.uk

I go above and beyond to make sure I can pay my bills, whilst also making sure I have my eyes set on the bigger picture – y’know.. making my dreams come true and all of that. I may not be doing what other bloggers or freelancers are doing, but I’m doing what Grace should be doing and that is enough. I’m trying to push myself and work hard, but I’m also aware of how important self care & having me time is. I guess I’m just figuring out the work/life balance whilst also being honest with myself and what I can and can’t do.

I’m doing the very best I can and that IS enough.

16 Comments

  1. 24th March 2017 / 5:51 pm

    I SO needed this reminder today! I've been beating myself up all afternoon for not having enough time to head to the gym, and I've ignored the fact that I've done about twice as much as I normally do in a day today. Thank you. Also, your new hair is AMAZING

    Steph – http://www.nourishmeblog.co.uk

  2. 25th March 2017 / 12:26 pm

    "I may not be doing what other bloggers or freelancers are doing, but I'm doing what Grace should be doing and that is enough." – That really got me. I am constantly comparing myself to everyone and anyone and I really need to fucking stop because although I am not doing what Peter, Sarah and Jane are doing, "I'm doing what Lisa should be doing and that is enough". Thank you <3 xx

  3. 25th March 2017 / 3:50 pm

    I'm loving this dress! One of the most important lessons in life is to stop comparing yourself to others. You are different in the best way possible, just like how everyone else is different. x http://www.justsavxnnah.com

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  5. 26th March 2017 / 11:50 am

    This is amazing!! Do whatever you need to do girl, whether that means taking it easy until your mental health has improved or pushing yourself for bigger goals! Do what works for you x

    Abi | abistreetx

  6. 26th March 2017 / 6:50 pm

    Love this post, this really resonates with me at the moment. Thank you for sharing your thoughts! Also love this look too 🙂

    VioletDaffodils
    xx

  7. 27th March 2017 / 1:18 pm

    Loved this post! I struggle with comparing myself to my friends who to me, seems like they are living the life. But what I have grown to realize is that we are all on different paths and (although it may take long) my time will come soon!

    Love the outfits! Looking forward to more posts:)

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  12. 30th March 2017 / 6:54 pm

    I love heart felt and honest posts like this! Its what motivated me to start my own blog and talk about my own feelings and become open. Thank you Grace. Cant totally relate to not feeling like you have done enough but thas just because you want to be successful and push yourself. Sometimes you need to take a step back and see how much you already have achieved! X

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  15. 2nd April 2017 / 7:09 pm

    Hello readers,
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    It was unfortunate that his ex gf decided to contact him to get him back the moment we planned to build a family together. I was hurt for seeing him confused and indecisive after I sacrificed time, energy, heart, life, money, soul for him only for him to pay me with heart break by saying that he is now unsure of our relationship. He developed an attitude of becoming cold and distant towards me. I know he loves me very much for the past 4 years and I love him more before his ex tries to steal his heart.
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  16. 3rd April 2017 / 1:20 pm

    My husband and I have been married for 3 and a half years. In June it will be 7 years that we have been a part of each other lives. Recently he found out about a guy I slept with when we were separated and I did not tell him about. Before we got married we both agreed to let everything out and start fresh. I didn’t tell him. I was embarrassed bc the guy and I never actually had sex…just everything that led up to it. not to mention it was my brothers best friend and a huge mistake. well it came out recently along with some lies. A friend told my husband I cheated on him and I have never cheated on my husband nor would I ever. He is convinced I am a cheater. we have 2 beautiful kids and all I have ever wanted is a happy family. my kids and my husband truly are my everything. I can not see a future where my husband is not in it. I want to do whatever I can to save my marriage but I feel my husband is already set on the divorce. I know I could have been a better wife to him….a wife he deserves but now I fee like I have realized it too late. I look at my kids and I hate myself for allowing myself to break my family apart. I know my husband is not perfect and he has hurt me tremendously these past 5 years we have been off and on but we made it through for a reason. I love him and I want to save my marriage, one day a friend of my introduce me to a spell caster online who lift me up gave me hope and with-in 2 days after his spell my husband who told me he needed a divorce, called me and take me back home to me i must say today we are happily as one big family again all thanks to Dr happy a father and a real spell caster.Contact email address happylovespell2@gmail.com Call and Whats-App him +2348133873774 Also contact and know more about his service at http://happyspelltemple.webs.com/

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