In various aspects of my life, I've been pretty lost for many months (probs a year and a bit tbf). I think thats just what happens, especially in your 20s. You change, you grow, you evolve and sometimes that leaves you feeling like 'wtf am i doing with my life'.
As someone who's always been into fashion (at 14 I had 200 pairs of trainers - they were my thang) my style has somewhat remained the same, but I guess its just developed.
I find inspiration from Instagram, blogs & of course everyday life. I love walking around London and seeing 'normal' girls wearing killer outfits - I often take a cheeky little snap so that I can recreate the look or put my own twist on it.
However a longtime ago I was overcome with some sort of weird pressure that I needed to dress differently. I needed to dress like a blogger, whatever the hell that means. I spent £100s on re doing my wardrobe & buying clothes that I thought people wanted to see me sporting. I stopped wearing colour and opted for the 'minimal' style (which isn't me at all FFS). I just completely lost myself trying to be someone I'm not.
I was scrolling through Instagram and noticing the 'top fashion bloggers' had a minimal, monochromatic, effortless style that I just had to have so my following would grow. I remember picking outfits for LFW back in February, and asking myself 'is this a fashion outfit', and again - what the hell does that even mean?
Im usually so sure of myself so when I get completely lost, I end up frustrated and annoyed - which is why I fell out of love for fashion. I stopped posting Instagram pics, stopped making fashion videos and stopped shooting outfits for my blog.
Other factors also played a part in me completely forgetting how I like to dress, such as, putting on weight (post coming about that soonish) and lacking in some serious self care..
The start of 2016 was extremely traumatic for me, for a number of reasons and looking back now, I was definitely suffering with my mental health and I was also extremely unhappy. I was under a lot of pressure, I was overworked and I wasn't taking care of myself. Putting on makeup was a task that required so much effort, I would often just go bare faced. I lived in leggings and baggy tops and all in all - I looked and felt like shit.
After a break in May, I realised enough was enough and I needed to sort myself out. Part of that was to have a think about my personal style and spend some time falling back in love with fashion. When you're feeling insecure and overwhelmed, its natural to put yourself last so I gave a shit ton of clothes to charity, sold a few bits on Depop and had a complete re-vamp of not only my life, but my wardrobe too.
I looked at old photos and reminded myself how I used to dress so it was time to bring that person back lol. I like being daring and bright. I love colour, texture and patterns. I love oversized kimonos and cardigans, with cropped tops and comfy trousers. I like high waisted jeans, gold hoops and gold rings. I love statement shoes and sheer materials. I love anything and everything thats bardot. I like eather & chic, affordable accessories. I certainly do not like a predominately monochrome wardrobe, fedora hats and fitted shirts - thats for damn sure.
Im so glad my inspiration is back so that I can make a little more effort in my choice of outfits. If my outfit slays then I feel happier (so ridiculous I know, but thats me). Im excited to start sharing my looks with you all again, across my different platforms. I'll be shooting with my photographer soon but I really like sharing 'less high quality' photos with you sometimes, it kinda makes my space feel a bit more authentic.
Im trying to hold onto 2012 blogging so fucking bad aren't I? LOOOOL!
What I have learnt is that your aesthetic is a reflection of you, and how you dress can often let people know how you want to perceived. I guess I'm bold, a little sassy and downright full of life. And you know what? Im cool with that.
Heres what I wore & a few items I would love to incorporate into my wardrobe (by love, I mean need. ABSOLUTELY need).