I have decided to do a lifestyle/personal post every Sunday on my blog. I like getting vulnerable with you guys because it feels like you are genuinely my friends & I know that when I'm bare, it helps so many of you. My "Sundays" will be a mash up of anything and everything but will probably be nothing to do with beauty or fashion. Is that cool? Lets go..
This week I went back to my exercise classes. I haven't been for months. Life sometimes takes its toll on me & to be honest, when I'm busy, I would rather sleep when I get the time. I haven't been feeling my normal self for the past 3 weeks or so & I've been slipping into low moods on numerous occasions. I can't pin point the exact reasons for my sad feelings but it's been pretty cloudy for me. A few days ago I decided to sit myself down and re-evaluate everything - what I wanted, what I felt, where I was going. Whilst in thought I realised that leading a non exercise lifestyle could explain my blah mood. Exercise is a release of negative feelings for me & it can lift my mood & make me feel good again. My problem is that going to the gym or exercise classes actually causes me anxiety and it takes me a lot of effort to go. I get really jittery thinking about how gross I look exercising and if people see me and stuff - its really silly but my anxiety can sometimes be beyond my control. Anyway, this week I bit the bullet, thought fuck it & went to my favourite Zumba class. My Zumba teacher Mel said she had missed me and welcomed me back.. I was so happy & proud of myself for getting off my ass and going. I thoroughly enjoyed myself & absolutely loved walking out thinking 'I feel good & I've burnt away some sadness'. I am now back to exercising regularly & I am absolutely loving it.